Etiquette

和以前一位很好的朋友谈话
突然发现怎么渐渐地淡掉了
当回复方式已大不如前
心里难免会有点落寞
出来见面也不怎么对谈
搞什么
我很不习惯
也很不喜欢
我们该出来见面谈谈吧
我们该在其中一方的家中畅谈吧
人说你会要倾诉的好朋友
不能有太多朋友
或许吧，
你的确有太多朋友了
Talk about last-long friendship
a few ngam key close friends will do.
today strongly assure me that
true friend is about quality rather than quantity
there are an amount normal friends
that you need to keep as social requirement
you may not like it, but you have to admit it
but those who can talk with you and you truly can talk with
you do not need many.

身边的过客好多

有时夜晚想想

心情会变得不好

友情伤起来一点也不好过

当他不觉得是一件严重的事时

你会徘徊

该放弃么?

玩也该玩完了吧

应该是时候投资在感情了

致我所失去的友谊

再见。

下雨天

这里又回到了夏天末近秋天

这个季节一直都有下雨

有时候在市中心里

走几个小时没带伞

就淋着雨回家

这天气，不尽人意。

星期五晚上

我啥都没做

只是在雨天里

上着网看满月

今晚下班了

走出来发现下着绵绵细雨

这雨细细绵绵的

淋湿不了我

一路上回家

走着走着

在想

这么早回家

又怎样?

没有了归属感

感觉好糟糕

好久没深谈了

嘿，

最近你还好吗

我想念以前的你。

We need to communicate

I miss you mate.

Best friend

当你和你最要好的朋友
在同个车厢里面对面坐
可是却一点也不熟悉
一句话也不哼。
你只能假装地
闭上眼睛
你并非想睡
而且你不想睡
你想和他聊天
但是你清楚地知道
就算开口了
也不会得到诚恳的反应
而且日复一日
已经欠缺了共同的话题
那不是冷战
你盖着双眼
装睡
他看着窗外
不对着视线
你很心痛
但无能为力。
就这样地
四个小时。
这段期间
彼此对话不超过十五句。


或许是我敏感吧
但我一点也不觉得这应该发生
对于无所不谈的朋友，这太不对劲了。
对了，我不是在描述身边朋友的故事
那是我的故事
那是我们
我好郁闷
又能怎样
束手无策
我想找人说说话。

Victoria

When I completely well connected with you
double range
what else can i ask for?
18.8.13

自欺

其实到最后

好像都是自己在骗自己

时常听人说

犯贱。

何不？

我也很低调地

成为了一份子

2.8.13

it was not as superb as the previous one
but its great, still
as its my fav anyway.
i feel you again

EU

currently im in newcastle
yea back to this place
which i not suppose to be at this time.
i shall travelling for more than a month
right after my graduation
according to my ori plan.
when you told me its on 29th aug
my heart fell
i was thinking like
no more prague
no more budapest
no more german
no more espana
no more suisse
it will be my biggest regret
if i come over brit and study here
but never went to swiss
i sacrifice santorini
and make the option to visit my dream swiss
but now it is just not possible.
its so heartache when i saw friend posting pictures in her swiss trip
i save my money on food throughout the past eleven months
wish to get a better journey during summer trip.
i shall be travelling up to fourteen countries
now i could only go up to five countries
dafuq.
what to do
as a youth traveller as a backpacker
it is necessary to have at least two persons travelling
travelling alone looks cool but nah
u will found everything is so inconvenient
u need a person to watch out ur backpack when u're in toilet
u need a person to share the cost or entrance fees sometimes
u need a person to look after you when u sick in the trip
fuck yea; i have the correct travel partner
but now my plan ruined, completely ruined.
i will never blame my travel partner
as he is my chosen one.
i feel disappointed and dissatisfied with the whole situation but
i just cant blame him
it is just meant to be like that.
you know he is the perfect person to travel with
you know the trip will have much fun because of him
but now u just couldnt begin the journey because of him as well
imma just frustrated
but nothing i can do, neither him.
fuck.
tonight imma quite moodless
it is a month of misery ahead of me
i know what i want, but i dunno what to do
i have no plan now...
feel like wanna get a gap year
perhaps this is the only option
to go backpack, to yolo before work
so confusing
so down now
what can i do next
what shall i do next
fuck this shit.

trio

2.6.13
人就是非得到了离别的时候
才会特别地去珍惜一段关系。
十个月，
说长它甚至一年都不到
说短但它真的并不短。
或许只有在这段空间里
在这个地方在这种倒数的情况下
才能酝酿出如斯的关系。
再过一段日子待我们回去了
是否还能维持现有的联系?
未来很远
很多事情都说不过
我们会渐渐淡去吧
我们会有更多的合作空间吧

三人行

还是我最爱的相处方式

我英国的三人行

怨时已寡

相见恨晚

。

Monumental talk

25.5.13
Friday midnight


Straight forward
This is the element i lack of
and this is the point that sparks quarrel between us.
In the kitchen
u expressed your dissatisfaction and disappointment
yea i fully understand it is my fault
but now i know
how much weight a promise means to you
how significant a personality of straight forward means to you
it is like air around us
you dont speak it out, but u practice it unconsciously.
along the two hours talk
we voice out nearly everything
any issue, any criticism and any appreciation
that both of us had in our mind
we had our voices and volume raised
it had certainly disturbed my flatmate
but what a healthy conversation it is
It was quite amount of fictions during the talk
but i dont really mind
at least at the end of the session, we smiled.

Yea i said it that night
i value you much
even more than many of my hometown friends
imma so glad that within this ten months
as our friendship grows and develops
you place me a position in top5 of your list
thanks mate, you deserve a top five place as well
or even further ahead.
I had never been so straight forward to anyone ever in my life
neither to any of my high school friend, nor uni friend.
what a deep and quality conversation we have
through this we understand, and we learn.
the summer trip to be the wonderful finale for this whole freaking year
from the time we know each other in Jazz bar to deep talk in each other room
from the time we cook dinner together to done packing for our travelling
hell yeah what a precious time we have
imma looking forward to any potential possibility to work on in msia
as what you said,
with trust and effort
we can do a lot of things.
a night with appraisals and arguments
it is like a friendship confession
a day worth to record down.

People will remember, if they were prominently treasured and valued.

I will remember for sure

when the moment I ask you

" eh, actually who will you travelling with during your summer trip har? "

" huh? I'm expecting you leh,
not mer?
how about you? "

My compliments

My room is such a mess after i submit assignment and after i done my travelling
I look at the coffee
the wholemeal bread and chocolate
the fisheye lens, lego and tupperware
for the first time i feel like owing someone so much
you have been a good companion of mine
or i would say
one of the top three in my list.
I will remember those who not just having same interest and topic with me
but also those who gone through lotsa milestones with me
we've been through countless dimension of times
both exciting and depressing moments.
I name you my kaki.
a person who I need not to hide too much
a person who I can grow together with
a person who I can really rely on
you're a great individual
at this place within this time frame.
I have gave you my highest compliments
and you got all my respect.

Back from your flat, I realize
few months back, I thought this person who i named as 'kaki'
was the one who study at south of uk.
Now it has been you.
A shift of preference in doing some serious and crazy stuffs
I never expect, but I am very glad on this shifting of people
Im not sure how long will this momentum lasts
but so far I am very comfortable and grateful on this bond.
Will I meet a better one
if both of us pursuing our own ambition at different places?
Will we remain strong
if both of us are about to stay at the same place?
Luck isn't always by your side
to make you get along with a friend so well.
Time flies,
cherish the friendship and bond we had now
and let appreciation and dynamic grow.
As you said,
This is the reality.
You dont used to have the habits
I dont used to let go so easily
We will be good mates,
if only you appreciate.
Glad that I met this partner overseas
God bless.

Distance

Now I put full hope on you
A simple insta like
can cheer me up for the morning.
A new fb message from you
can really made my day
that's what imma waiting each and every day
every morning after i woke up.
Please reply
i rather u seen it than never read through it
at least u know i throw u a question
and im interested in chatting with you.
I first met u last year
and we never have any interaction within this whole year.
We are not close at all
but you granted me a great first impression
that eventually sparks me drown into love.
First sight love
the love im having right now
the feeling im holding at this moment
imy.